Lost on the Way

I need to know who I am.

I feel I've gone wrong from the start,

and that my paths has brought me

where I shouldn't be, and I'm so

lost and far from the place I should

be, that by just turning and running

I never find my real destination.

What can I do? How I should proceed?

There's a spark inside me, that I sometimes

feel. But its shape is so vague, that

It's hard to really see or believe,

what I even think it might be.

I hope many things. I've started to have

dreams. But I don't have any experience

from real life and I don't know

anyone who could help me.

I mean, no one knows me, except God.

I know He knows me, but I don't know

how He speaks and do I know how to hear.

Down here, there's no one whom I could

trust, cause I've never known anyone

who would really be even interested

in me to know who I am.

How could they, my whole life has been

like a charade, phantom theatre, that

even I myself don't know, what is

fake and what is real.

But deep down, I feel something is

calling me to come out to live,

to find out how it all could be.

”Dad, you'll guide my steps, won't you?”